B/D fic?

[ishafel.livejournal.com]

I'm looking for a fairly long Bodie/ Doyle story I read online relatively recently-- within the last two years. I think it was in an archive (not LJ, AO3 or the Yahoo group file) but I'm not sure. Bodie and Doyle had a very casual sex type relationship that Bodie refused to discuss/ acknowledge and when Doyle pushed for more he blew up-- I think maybe there was a dub-con scene? Doyle left CI5 and Bodie stayed-- eventually it was revealed that Bodie had been molested as a child by his father. I think somehow they got back together and it ended happily.

Thanks!


ETA: Found by natsuko1978-- it is "Heat-Trace" by Helen Raven. Thanks everyone!

Comments

[moonlightmead.livejournal.com]

Everything up until 'Doyle left CI5' sounded like Sebastian's 'Wonderful Tonight' (on the circuit archive, I think on the Hatstand, and also on Sebastian's own site).

But 'Doyle left and Bodie stayed - eventually it was revealed - ' is not Wonderful Tonight. (Is it? Well, Doyle didn't leave, definitely.) Oh dear!

I don't know why, but it is my impression that most stories that involve one of them as the victim of abuse tend to do that to Doyle. There is at least one by Angelfish which involves Bodie - there's a line about Bodie thinking 'if I hadn't been sized up like meat on the hoof, I could walk around with not a stitch on', or something like that.

Um. Not sure this is helping! (Except that I shall go and look for the Angelfish one and see.)

[ishafel.livejournal.com]

It isn't Wonderful Tonight (although I see what you mean about similarities in the first half.)

[heliophile-oxon.livejournal.com]

"Broken Cover" is the Angelfish one you mention; can't place the story ishafel is looking, for, though.

[kiwisue.livejournal.com]

I'm really not sure - there is a definite genre where Bodie has an abusive father, but it's hard to put one of those stories together with the other detail. Not 'Wonderful Tonight'; OK, how about 'Jigsaw Puzzle' (Bodie has family issues but no SA although there is some dub con - or a bit more - as they get back together, Doyle having left)? Otherwise need to put my thinking cap on. Do you think it was a newer story or an older, circuit one?

Archives other than AO3 include the Hatstand (original and self-service); the online Circuit Archive; Oblique Publications (pdf files).

[natsuko1978.livejournal.com]

I'm not going to re-read it because it was hellish triggering for me, but is it possibly Helen Raven's "Heat-Trace"?

http://www.kelper.co.uk/helenraven/trace.html

They weren't both in CI5, in that, though - Doyle was still in the Met and only Bodie was in CI5, although in the fic this was written as a sequel to, Doyle did join CI5 at the end.

TW: they both have significant psychological breakdowns and there is Major Depressive illness as well as the child abuse potential trigger

[ishafel.livejournal.com]

That is definitely it, I think I had the details mixed up a bit. Thank you so much! Sorry not to have posted my original request with a TW, I didn't realize that was even an option.

Can I just say how much I wish there was a real life version of communities like this, so I could be like, "Help me find my checkbook!" and complete strangers would generously come and search my house? You guys are the best!