Looking for a Fic

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Not a lot of helpful info here - but I'm hoping someone will recognize this:

B&D wrapping up after a job. There's tension between them. I think Bodie wants to have it off but Ray refuses. When Bodie asks why, Ray tells him he loves him.
then there's a line something like stay and I won't take advantage

They go undercover (an IRA group, I think) and Bodie meets up with an old comrade and the two of them sleep together. Ray knows - there is much angst. The old comrade ends up betraying his boss to save Bodie.

I may have combined two different stories here...